Posted by Partlycloudy on October 13, 2008, at 11:00:33
In reply to Re: Big trauma trigger for me (CSA), posted by antigua3 on October 13, 2008, at 10:38:55
Cautiously, I drew a physical map of where it had happened. That helped me feel better.
Today I went to the storage box in the garage and plucked out the school yearbook from that year. My abuser's little brother was in my class, and I picked his face out immediately.I am not making this up. (I am telling myself this, although I already know it.)
I also, with trepidation, googled the family name and the year after my event, because I recall there being an absolutely enormous court case involving my abuser. It jumped out at me from the computer screen.
The year after he had assaulted me the same person had gotten to another little girl, a year younger than I was at the time. I remember the court case because he had not fit what was then the regular profile of a pedophile (I don't know what that would have been, since I was still a child myself).
In the tragic case that made the news, the little girl did not survive.
Not sure what we're going to do with all this nastiness now that it's all come up to the surface and won't go away again.
If I had said something at the time, would that little girl have lived.
Oh
my
god
what
have
i
done
poster:Partlycloudy
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