Posted by lucie lu on September 28, 2008, at 15:58:47
In reply to Re: how do you deal with self hatred? » lucie lu, posted by obsidian on September 28, 2008, at 14:54:07
> > What helps me in similar situations is to recognize those feelings - when I do, then things suddenly fall into place and I realize "aha, I am in that place again."
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> I'm not sure what this place is.Sid-
For me, it is a a depressive state of pain, guilt, hoplessness, self-blame, self-loathing, pessimism etc. etc. Fortunately, due to meds and therapy, I am usually in a healthier place most of the time - not meaning always happy and positive but at least more healthy than not. I've learned to notice my symptoms - ways of thinking and feeling - that tell me that I'm starting to get back into that negative, depressive state. Sometimes just recognizing that it's my depression "talking" is enough to help keep me from listening to the self-defeating things it always says to me. But the appearance of this state and these symptoms also is a signal to me that I need help, from my T and/or my p/doc. So "that place" for me refers to a collection of symptoms, and their appearance is a signal that I need to get clinical help.> > For me, I try to just hold on while I'm in the pit by doing self-care sorts of things, as if I am a kid home sick from school. It doesn't always work very easily but is good when it does. I find it hard to actually see people, and Babble is good for offering an alternative type of contact that is not face-to-face and therefore more easily tolerated during those times. I also make a list of those people who really love me and whose lives would be shattered if I weren't around anymore. Even if it's only one person, that is enough to keep me somewhat grounded.
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> I can't hurt myself, but my life also seems impossible at the moment.
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> > But if the feelings persist for any time - for me even a week would be enough to give me a
> > "heads-up" - or get more severe than usual, then I'm on the phone with my pdoc talking medication.
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> I'm thinking about calling my T, but I'm not really sure he can do anything right now for me. I have in some ways done this to myself.
> Thanks lucie :-)You don't have to be blameless to receive help, and you deserve help even if you feel you contributed to the problem. Otherwise, believe me, doctor's offices would all be empty!
Try to be good to yourself. ((((((((((Sid))))))))))
Lucie
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