Posted by Phillipa on September 11, 2008, at 19:37:34
In reply to Re: Why Can't I Cry?, posted by lucie lu on September 11, 2008, at 18:33:36
To all I can't cry or grieve no one cares in real life about me it's obvious when you constantly e-mail your kids and no responses. And if I make a mistake in posting e-bay get yelled at and daily told no. I charge for everyone but me. Can you believe I have no warmer clothes that fit? And the corker is that I'm afriad of trying on clothes reminds of my age. I fear death and don't want to die. And each day I feel worse. I force myself to go places can't sit still, can't watch TV gotta get away. And When I was seein the therapist all she kept saying was why are you afraid of being alone. If I knew I would tell. But used to be able to cry. Since the time my husband said if I knew you'd get sick would have never married you and my job is not to entertain you. He will say leave the house so leave for about four hours and he wants more. So I'm dead already. Emotionless. And it's not meds. Love Phillipa
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