Posted by zenhussy on August 15, 2008, at 23:23:23
In reply to Feeling shame and anger, posted by DAisym on August 15, 2008, at 21:05:17
big old "AHA!" to this:
>>>I don't want to do my own hard work around populating my life with supports and activities. I complain about being alone or not really knowing where my passion lies anymore - but I don't do anything about it. I hide with my books or I work all the time. Do I want my therapist to just fill up the void with his caring?<<<
that's a huge realization to come to. is it a new one?
today was out socializing w/ friend that shared a womens group long ago and we both discussed the work involved in healing that isn't focused on the past but instead on present stuff and what that shift meant/took.
must be something in the air!
it is a big job to create and sustain those things but it is possible. have experienced it firsthand as well as witnessed it in ppl, of all ages, over the years. for both of us a well attuned therapist played large role in continued encouragment for any and all support/social attempts.
we both agreed it was *so awkward*, or scary, or whatever, at first and still is at times but we both have done many many things to change that in ourselves since that group many years back.
imagine having support and activities again. no really....just try imagining it.
in the depths of depression and the darkest days of therapy never thought it would be possible yet have been taking classes here and there and dealing w/ life stuff in addition to going to dinner parties (EEK!) and casual gatherings, ballgames, gallery openings and upcoming weddings.
would have copped out on almost all those things due to inability of depression then to inability of anxiety but after working on meds/therapy for years to get to a point where there weren't any true inabilities left.......just don't wannas and you can't make mes. work w/ them perhaps?
you've done much hard work over the years you've shared here. very proud of all you've done.
so sorry you're feeling sad.
poster:zenhussy
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