Posted by Lemonaide on July 19, 2008, at 16:39:56
In reply to Re: I have lost it, I can't take it anymore, posted by antigua3 on July 19, 2008, at 11:54:21
Well I think I just blew my top, it happens once in a great while. But I said it, I am leaving, I have had it. I have never said it I believe. It was bad it was right within earshot of the kids too. I feel really bad about that. I talked to them and they understand I just got angry, they were worried. My son has been a little tough to deal with lately and he felt bad like it was all his fault.
So this morning my husband bought me flowers and I told him that he couldn't buy me. I went upstairs in our bedroom and watched TV. I watched September 11 I believe it was called. I don't know but it made me think about my life, and I don't think I really want a divorse. I told my husband I was sorry for saying what I said and I don't remember what he said. I can't say we made up because there isn't much of a relationship left anyway to make up. But I have been weepy all day.Thinking about my T and what he is going to do for me. Nobody has ever helped me like this, he didn't have to do this, but he wants to, he has things he wants to tell my T about his own experience.
Somehow he believes that my situation was sent his way as a way to help him deal with his feelings with a long time client. So this whole thing has gotten a lot bigger than I ever could imagine. He believes things happen for a reason.I see him Tues, I am glad, I don't know when he will be able to talk to my old T, but maybe he has already. I am anxious to see what he says. I have been having dreams of this, of my old T just breaking down in front of me crying for what he did to me, then me crying and then we embrace, and all is forgiven. But it was only a dream.
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