Posted by rskontos on June 3, 2008, at 17:29:42
In reply to Re: ddnos switched in front of T bad one, embarras » rskontos, posted by star008 on June 3, 2008, at 17:03:22
Star,
what has helped me the most is constantly telling them, the inners especially the littleones, I believe I have a few that are pre-verbal if you want my honest opinion. My parents started young on us. Anyway, with a lot of inner dialogue between me and them me just repeating over and over again that we will be all ok, even if in the past I have not handled things well I am now trying. And that T no matter how uncomfortable he makes everyone is trying to help and that being there is safe no matter how hard it is. It is helping more and more but is a hard lonely road if you ask me. You know there is so much to do alone in this therapy road man it is hard. But you got us babe to vent to.
I understand and I don't understand it much. DDNOS, DID or whatever it doesn't matter like I railed at my therapist. I am what I am. I have something that doesn't make much sense to me or to alot of people how I can just disappear inside my head yet seem to be around to others just doesn't seem right but it is what is happening. The professionals can call it whatever they want. I have lived with it for 49 years not calling it anything yet it exists in my head. I have my own personal opinions about DD as a whole that they have only scratched the surface of it. Because like most of us, we keep so much to ourselves so how would they, the professionals really know. I share about 1/4 or maybe even 1/32 of what really goes on.But what I do know is this don't be embarrassed. I was when I switched one day. I believed that I switched to one of the non-verbal ones or she is at least only about 3 or so. And I did not talk to him much or cry I just sat there. He did not realize it. Finally I came out of but I did not make that happen. My H can bring out of sometimes. But not sometimes. Afterwards I felt so bad and why, it is not something I choose to do. It is embarrasing but it should not be, we are trying to get help. You are doing the right thing by working through it. You are being brave.
I will send you good vibes in case that helps. ((((((((Star)))))
rsk
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