Posted by muffled on May 15, 2008, at 11:03:32
In reply to self-injury triggers » muffled, posted by llurpsienoodle on May 15, 2008, at 7:22:57
> How's this for one: T doesn't really care about me, he just wants to be paid. That would be an example of "mind reading" and I need to counter it with a more accurate belief. T thinks I'm an intriguing, interesting person. He has said on multiple occasions that he likes me as a person, and that he looks forward to sessions with me.
*I expect he DOES look forward to sessions with you, not only that your pleasant, but because he truly want s to help you, thats why he a T. So you don't have to put on a show for him.
> Well, i took a nice long aromatherapy bath. it was soothing. But then h and I got into long discussion of $3700 worth of bills that are going to wipe out our bank account, necessitating sellin of stocks, etc. what a mess.*Ummmmm, I'm getting nasty legal registered letters from the govt cuz i not filed income tax for YEARS :-( Our paperwork is a true NIGHTMARE :-(
>I felt trapped and hopeless. The only thing I could think of was... no more beads for my craft projects. See, I'm all out of beads and there's not likely to be any more on the way. (woe is me). and then I felt very sad, because the bead extravaganza was part of my strategy to keep the hyper-happies going. And then I felt desperate and found an x-acto knife and cut my arm until it bled. satisfied, I went to bed and slept a few hours.
*Ahhh, Overwhelmed. Well you did what you needed to do, now you move on. I used SI lots for overwhelm, its OK. I don't do it much now. All in good time.
> I think my dad's love for me was very complicated. He loved money more, that much is obvious. He is an extremely selfish, violent man. I am transferring that onto T.*I dunno, but it must be hard for you and I am sorry for that. Alls I can say is just keep working away at it as best you can.
> ((((mufledypoopsie))))*(((LLurpyloo)))
> thank you for thinking of me. sorry I'm such a disappointment*Ummmmm....WHO???? said you were a dissapointment???? NOT me! I just feel for your hurts. I just wish you the best. Thats all. I understand the struggle. You do NOT dissapoint me at all.
I UNDERSTAND.
S'ok.
Its hard, but it does get better, its just real hard work getting there, but its WORTH it.
M
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