Posted by star008 on December 24, 2007, at 21:07:39
In reply to What is wrong with me????, posted by dancinbillie on December 24, 2007, at 13:21:16
This is a tough one. I understand you were hurt and feel victimized by the whole ordeal and now it is all you are focusing on. You have other things to deal with but this is taking up your whole world..Sometimes we over-focus on one thing and in a way are able to avoid looking at the other issues we need to address..Easy for me to say, but you have to let this go and look elsewhere for a treatment program. There is more going on there than they are saying and I am afraid you are not going to get anywhere with them. And even if they letyou back in, would you even want to be there now?? It would be too strange.
As far as the attraction thing goes. Have you thought that maybe you are bi-curious?? Most heterosexual women don't visualize other women having sex and they don't fantasize about having sex with othr women. So,, maybe you are going through aperiod of confusion. There is nothing wrong with it if you are..There are alot of Bi's out there. I can only guess so don't take my words as if I actually know what is going on with you. I think you are still very attacted to her and knwing you can't be with her only makes it worse.
You need to stop worrying about whose fault it was and how things went. She clearly over-stepped some boundaries and made some mistakes.. Your intensity might have frightened her.. Who knows??
I hope things let up for you a bit. Start looking for somewhere else. It will give you somethng else to focus on.. try to have a peaceful holiday.
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