Posted by rskontos on December 23, 2007, at 11:31:24
In reply to Re: The best Christmas present- a 'good fit'! » rskontos, posted by Wittgenstein on December 23, 2007, at 10:39:36
Thanks Witti, I am glad too and as I reflect on the session I find so much to think about and take in. It is remarkable that he got so many insights about my behavior and how I felt and how I react that my other therapist never did. He also said I would get well with the right kind of work. But his biggest concern was that the one I was seeing was unfortunately not going to be able to do that for me and I agree. There is a mechanism inside that starts going off that I hear from when I know deep down something wont work. And the other therapist kept saying and doing things that set off so much unstability in me. I mean I wasnt exactly balanced when I went to her but I wasnt switching all the time either. I switch when feeling threatened or anxious and I was getting to feel both all the time. A Friends T therapist said it should happen in the context of therapy not spill out all the time in life. And I was spilling out in life not therapy. so my hope is I will do this in therapy and not so much in life. Hopefully he can get them out and deal with them and life can be left alone for the most part. That is what I think is suppose to happen.
He also made me realize so many things in my life after my marriage was also trauma that induce the dissocation too and that must be dealt with too. But I still have hope.
I am a mess but a mess he thinks that can be fixed and that is a wonderful present for Christmas because I was at the point I thought I couldn't be. Now I might even be able to decide what I can do with the rest of my life. You know what to do now that I can finally grow up.
Thank Witti. It is a journey but like you told me earlier in another thread one that is worth going on.
rsk
Ps....Have a Merry Christmas yourself... How are you doing? I hope you are doing well......Thanks so much for your reply.
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