Posted by lovelorn on December 22, 2007, at 17:13:51
In reply to House » lovelorn, posted by muffled on December 22, 2007, at 11:25:15
>I have ZERO attachment to this place where we live now.
This is key too. Actually reading this and I feel like crying. A good cry though, a cleansing cry because I realize I am very, very sad at the lack of attachment and I am struggling with just that right now.
Where does attachment come from, or the ability to attach. It is either something that you developed from young or something that you create in your own mind. And I am having so much difficulty creating it in my mind. Before the breakdown I was okay. A little emotionally sensitive but okay. Wherever I was living, I would form an attachment, pay attention to detail, enjoyed beautifying my surroundings and having things that expressed my personality, was even kind of stylish, etc. I had a sense of at least being attached to myself, my mind and an enjoyment of my surroundings and making them nice and comfortable for those around me (my daughter and ex-H at one point). That's all gone now. And I am trying so hard to create it again.
What do you think would make you have an attachment, Muffled? I am asking myself the same question.
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