Posted by rskontos on December 19, 2007, at 19:18:11
In reply to Re: You get a p-doc appt??? » rskontos, posted by muffled on December 19, 2007, at 12:00:35
Hey muffled I called my neuro whom I trust and asked her for a referral to a p-doc but she didn't call back. I guess the holidays have everyone gone for the day. So I will call back myself to see. I do have one more name I can call and I will call the other name again too.
I am little scare to see p-doc though I admit. What if new doc thinks I am crazy. I mean too crazy. that is my worry. I so what if he thinks that i think that.
I have been taking 1 1/2 benedryl at night to help. And that does. I am trying to stay calm. I am trying to dissociate some too. I think sometimes I want to go to the hospital. if i didn't try so hard to hang in I would be looney i think. But I keep trying. Today was better. Not so empty feeling a little normal cause I did normal things. Wrote my christmas cards, mailed my nephews christmas presents, which meant I went to a store big deal for me and I went to the grocery store the first day I said I was ( usually takes me 3-5 days to get there). I hate stores with people in them. Well what other kind is there?Sometimes I want to go with you to that bridge. You know the one you went to. I am sorry I should not say that.
Yeah I think it is good for them to get a chance to be out but it makes me feel weird to look at it online. But it is ok I think. I need to do something and stopping them only makes it worse. But more of them want a turn now. Some aren't nice, smart but not nice. Peace might be a hard time from now.
I will stay sane and safe I hope. Take care.....you are the best. All of you are....thanks for all my replies...
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