Posted by rskontos on November 19, 2007, at 15:35:20
Ok, so I was thinking my procastination had to do with if I don't buy the turkey or clean the house maybe T-day and my family won't happen? Or is that just denial...........I am stressing over this as I think it will not turn out ok.........rsk
I don't want company, I don't want to do with my dad, I don't want to make nicey nicey, I just want to be left alone. I don't want to referee anymore at holidays. I don't care, let everyone else take care of themselves, I am just one person not the keeper of all. I have to cook, clean, do it all. It makes me mad. I want to go to Egypt. Or anywhere they don't have thanksgiving because I know I have some things to be thankful for but I don't want to do it right now. I want to just be left alone. I don't mind my sister really. I do mind my uninvited dad. I am not taking his crap though. If he makes fun of me or ridicles me like he did the last time I am going to let it rip. I might just let out the mad one inside of me and let her have a go at him. He needs a tongue lashing. It is not like he lives the perfect life. And if he tells me he doesn't like my food I will give him the phone book to go find a restaurant to eat at. I will be combative this year not docile. I will go down with a fight. Might not be what my T says to do. But it is my new game plan. Ok now I can go clean up the house and tomorrow I will buy the stinking turkey. Thanks for listening to my rant and rage and dribble. Sorry guys. rk
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