Posted by RealMe on October 29, 2007, at 20:08:50
In reply to Re: Been thinking/sad faces, posted by rskontos on October 29, 2007, at 11:46:55
And it is okay to be angry. I am still angry with my brother and mother and others who abused me. When I get in touch with my feelings from back then, though, then I feel a very deep hurt and yearning for something different as well as a sense of being alone inside from that time. It is so painful that it is difficult to hold on to for very long.
This just reminded me that my T has a persian carpet on the floor of his office. Usually things look like elephants and circus animals and trees,et all real cute. Then, they turn into penises all over the place on that damn carpet--like a Rorschach depending on what I am talking about. I look at the floor a lot. So, when they become penises I have to do something to make them cute little animals again--then T says I want the innocence back that was taken from me. Well, so maybe I do.
RealMe
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