Posted by Daisym on October 26, 2007, at 22:53:18
In reply to Re: Coming to terms with CSA - TRIGGER THREAD » DAisym, posted by emily99 on October 26, 2007, at 22:17:27
Emily,
Please understand that the trigger in the subject line is just a standard practice we use here to alert others. You did not trigger me. And the CSA was pretty clear - there might be a few people who don't know what that means. So no apologies necessary.
It is OK to feel sorry for yourself. I bounce from deep despair about how "ruined" I am to intense, explosive anger that I have no idea what to do with. The more I remembered, the more I could see why I did this, or didn't do that. It made me furious to feel like I've been a puppet all along - not fully in control of myself and my choices.
After 4 years of talking about this stuff, I'm just "in the middle" my therapist says. Scary thought - and it is still hugely painful.
This really is the place to come when you need help or holding. I can't tell you how often I've done that. I can't imagine what shape I'd be in if I hadn't found Babble and the group of folks who hang out here. So keep posting. It really helps.
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