Posted by sunnydays on October 12, 2007, at 15:58:08
So, I've been feeling bad. Feeling a little better now. T was really hard the last three times - I pretty much cried the whole time. Today he was trying to help me practice some techniques to soothe myself, but I kept pushing away and refused to try a lot of them. It feels like the child part of me just doesn't even want to try to feel better. And then I freaked out because I had refused to try so many things, and I emailed my T AND called him.
He called me right back and said I was fine, I didn't do anything wrong. I think he might be getting frustrated, though, (or it could totally be my projection) because he said, "I just don't know how to tell you, sunnydays, you're ok. Feelings are fine to have. One of my goals is to get you better able to manage these feelings, so I'm trying to help you practice these techniques when we're together instead of just being there to soothe you when you aren't feeling well. It feels different I know, and I know it's really hard for you. But you're ok."
At the end of session today he told me to read about transactional analysis. I had said it felt like there were three parts of me - the part that didn't want him to leave, the part that wants to feel better, and the part that yells at me about everything. He got all excited and drew a picture and said that the part that doesn't want him to leave is what is often called the child part and the part that yells at me is the critical parent and the part that wants to feel better is the adult part. And he said that that was an idea in TA and to read about it and see what I thought. He said he'd never heard anyone nail it quite as directly as I had. Does anyone know anything about TA?
sunnydays
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