Posted by Scentedgarden on October 2, 2007, at 18:12:21
In reply to Is it possible ive been digging a bigger hole 4 me, posted by Scentedgarden on October 2, 2007, at 17:52:28
hi i am female and im in love with my female T.
my T seemed to like being with me as much as i with her... she knew how i felt but it was covered over in lots of ways...
If you have been in the same boat may i ask how did you get over it?????/
how did you survive...??
If you have been in my shoes are you now well.. is he/she out of your head..> how long did that take to get him/her out of your mind..??
i think about her all the time nearly, but like at night when im alon and going to bed its the worst...right now. and i dont think its only infatuation as i have seen her in her normal environment too, and she also shared lots of herself with me in indirect ways, not info on marriage or kids but sexual things etc... and its took me 2 yrs to fall in love with her..so that cannot be infatuation..!!
but i believe it can be a little part of it....but not sall of it. I love her! end of story, and thats my problem, even if i think its wrong or illogical, i must be stupid stupid to want her to love her when it is hurting me so much. i maybe should never care for another being again.. maybe its my destiny to ache forever.im dying !!!!! of pain and ache and hurt and thoughts of her with someone else i want to remove my brain and stop it thinking of her ever ever ever.... although thats not entirely true--beacuase there are many good things we have together too. too many to ever keep living in my soul and be totally free from her loving influence in the 4 yrs we have together... they cannot be erased.
( by the way its till stands i dont want advice from those of you who have not been there...) its maybe sweet but what the heck good can it do to put plasters over huge gaping bleeding wounds and longings of the human heart.. a ((cuddle)) and a oh it will be okay sg...just aint goinna cut it with me.)
so all you guys and gals out there who read these boards and never ever post... drop me a line if you're in tune with what the song in my life.. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE>> and my babblemail is open.
anyone else who reads this and cares but cant help.. I'd like to say HI, nice to see you again..! -
kindly sg
poster:Scentedgarden
thread:786546
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