Posted by LittleGirlLost on September 25, 2007, at 13:19:28
In reply to Re: Babble interfere with therapy? » LittleGirlLost, posted by Daisym on September 25, 2007, at 0:02:16
> But I don't think it takes away from the relationship I've built with my therapist. It just informs me of what I'd want - and it is something to bring up. Because then you can explore why you want this or that.
**So when I feel that angry part who just wants to shut down (which it must be because "I'm" not supposed to get angry), I totally want to get in her face and show her some posts and say, "look at what X's therapist said, look how wonderful", yeah then this whole blow-up would never have happened. ugh! I'm embarrassed to even admits this, and that's why angry part just shuts down and doesn't say anything.
> Most of the work in therapy happens during repairs. Ruptures are painful but how we work through them teaches us so many things. But it is important that you persist with what you need to talk about, and not shut down just because you think she doesn't want to talk about it. Keep saying, "this is important to me."
**I know that things are usually better after something like this; I just hope we can get through it. I don't know how TO get through it though. Yes it's important to me, and yes, I do need to talk about, and I should talk till I'm blue in the face if I want. But I've always felt that my feelings were so insignificant, that it's hard to say now that "this is important to me". (Plus I'm battling the stubborn one!)
I was embarrassed to bring this topic up with her to begin with, then to have a misunderstanding is even more embarrassing. In order to clear it up, we'd have to go back to the original conversation and risk my embarrassment again. I don't know that I want to, and when I saw her last week, I can't get it out of my head that she wasn't too encouraging. I just don't know.
I see her tonight, and although I'm nervous, I don't even feel like going. :(
Thanks for your input, Daisy.
lgl
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