Posted by Daisym on September 18, 2007, at 0:53:10
In reply to Need to post here **leaving T. trigger**(long), posted by 10derheart on September 16, 2007, at 17:05:22
(((Tender)))
I do not believe you are lazy. Frozen seems like a much better description. A very wise person said to me recently, "you are so hard on yourself." I think this applies to you too.
There are nights when I really want to post but I'm just too exhausted. There are other times when I don't know what to say or everyone has said it better. Sometimes I'm triggered, depressed or jealous. All these feelings get in the way of coherent sentences.
But then it cycles around and I can type again. Words seem to make sense and I have the courage to hit the send button. I give support. I whine on line. I allow others to feel my hurt. I write way to much when I cycle into this part.
I think most Babblers would agree that we don't keep score. Some people post often -- others drop in from time to time. It is all OK. I don't think there is any requirement to answer everyone who writes to you. Write when you can and what you want.
I really feel how sad you are about this move. I can only imagine how you've agonized over the decision. But out of the 168 hours in a week, staying for 2 or 3 "good" hours hardly makes sense if this move is as necessary as it sounds to be. I, of all people, know how essential a life line your therapist is. But the work you are doing is about going forward into your life, not staying stuck because you don't want to leave therapy.
I imagine your therapist is as sad to lose you as a client. He cares about you and will help you with this transition.
I'm glad you felt you could return here for support. Babble is always open...we'll leave the light on for you.
poster:Daisym
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