Posted by sunnydays on August 9, 2007, at 19:08:24
In reply to Re: what is wrong with me? » sunnydays, posted by DAisym on August 8, 2007, at 23:05:12
> It is hard to be a sensitive person in an insensitive world. I claimed for a very long time to not be sensitive until I started therapy and found my feelings.
**** I would have probably said I was too sensitive even before starting therapy. But I have found so many emotions since I started that now I would even consider myself stoic before. And I feel like there are a lot of emotions I don't allow myself to feel or express, and that may be where a lot of my anxiety is coming from.
My therapist almost always tells me, "you probably always were a sensitive soul, you just had to hide it." Last week, when I was railing against being so easily hurt, he said, "You seem to think being sensitive is a bad thing. Well I've been accused of being "overly" sensitive too. Do you find that to be a character flaw in me?" Ug - So we talked about how he handles stuff and what I can do to protect myself from being hurt. But it isn't helpful to be so self-critical. (easier said than done, I know.)
>**** Yeah. My T will say to me sometimes, "Don't judge yourself so harshly, sunnydays. You're ok." And that means so much to me when he says that.
> There really isn't anything wrong with you. But it is still painful to be so aware and raw all the time. I suggest trying to find techniques that work for you to protect yourself as much as possible. I think GG has a giant pair of sunglasses that she puts on when she is getting "sunburned" by the world. There is a book too, but I can't remember the title right now. I'll try to think of it.
**** When I'm home, I hug a stuffed animal I have and wrap myself in a blanket. But it's so hard. And I'm so anxious right now I feel like I might pass out. Only there's no reason for me to be this anxious.
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> Mostly I just wanted to say that I think your therapist is right. Being able to feel deeply means you can feel great joy and happiness. And that is a gift.**** I guess so. Except for the sadness.
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