Posted by Honore on June 13, 2007, at 9:40:11
In reply to Re: Having an open heart » Honore, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on June 12, 2007, at 20:58:15
You have an open heart, Llurpsie, even if you can't feel how open.
Hearts feel open and closed from time to time-- or they close like flowers at night, and open again when the sun shines again. Losing your home, and T, and place in school--however much they were irritants or sources of pain--makes one's heart shut up a little-- in a cabinet.
But it isn't really so shut up-- it only seems to be. You said that your T said you had made amazing progress-- yet you didn't say that to yourself--or perhaps feel that. You felt more the troubles and anxieties, and traumas that you were recapturing and naming-- and trying to contain, with difficulty.
The name Llurpsie almost means someone with an open heart to me. I admire that in you-- among other things-- but I understand how much it's hard to know about those things oneself.
And it's truly amazing that you're learning to drive-- along with having tea, and I hope chocolate (because we all know the unique properties of this hallocinogenic drug).
Honore
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