Posted by Dory on June 7, 2007, at 9:52:47
In reply to Re: an apology. **suicide triggers** » Dory, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on June 6, 2007, at 19:59:43
> While on the subject of pharmacology... I'm concerned that the clonazepam might be acting as a depressant.
i had that thought myself.. and then it ran away somewhere and i forgot. i often feel like it gives me a hangover..you know? like a haze for like a day afterward. i am thinking of switching back to the ativan. It didn't give me that feeling at all.
i have been thinking about calling my pdoc but feeling too guilty about it. If i call now he would reach me till monday anyway so there isn't much point.
> Dory, I know how you feel, and I worry about you because I care about you. I stuck around for you because you're you.((((Llurpy))))
> I wish I could be there in person. Believe it or not, you actually sound like a pretty cool person to be around. I'd go on a dog-walk with you (no scooping for me though!) and I'd go shopping with you (I'm kind of poor right now, so maybe just window shopping)i wish you could too... we could make a llurpsie-dome, blankets and pillows and desert. You might change your mind on the dog walking as they are complete jerks on the leash... i am poor too. i got new clothes because i needed them for work but i still wear the clothes i have had for ten yrs...even though i lost 45lbs.
> That's very important. Do a little research here- what makes you feel safer? What makes you feel less safe. There are some parts of your life that you have control over- and these are the places to build your safety net.
hmmm...
1) therapy..which i don't have the money for anymore :o(
2)my dogs.. i know i can't leave them with nowhere to go
3) writing about it and talking about it
4) removing stimulation...like sitting in the dark or something>
> It took months for me to trust my pdoc that he actually cared about ME.my pdoc said it took about 2yrs for me to trust him
>
> You need to stay close to your best friends. Keep their furry warm bodies close to you, and let their unconditional love into your heart a little bit.they are the best suicide prevention i have.
thanx for being there Llurpy
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