Posted by gazo on May 11, 2007, at 20:02:17
In reply to Re: can't get a break (long) » gazo, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on May 11, 2007, at 17:41:42
beauty? it's often beauty that hurts my eyes the most.. i see myself as so ugly, both inside and out. i am ashamed in the face of beauty.
one of the things that frightens me so much is not being able to feed my babies... but they are beautiful. They have the most beautiful loving eyes. They deserve a more stable home and mamma. It would be so easy to move into cheaper housing if i did not love them so... but who would lick the end of my nose to wake me?
i have the gift of these two pure hearts and i have no way to be sure how to take care of us.
the best hope i feel i have is my T. This past Monday he had an insight into what i was saying which gave me a ray of hope... i have not had hope in so many years, maybe never. But now... that is being taken away from me.
i am so ashamed of being such a failure.
thanks for trying to help Llurpsie.. i know you want to help.
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