Posted by Honore on May 9, 2007, at 9:00:47
In reply to Re: pdockery vs Therapizing » LlurpsieNoodle, posted by gazo on May 8, 2007, at 23:39:42
The idea of a log is a good one, Llurpsie. Then you can possibly make a log, of feelings and thoughts, or events perhaps that preceded or accompanied the side effect, or potential side effect.
Maybe if you do that for two or three days, you'll start to see some connections-- maybe time of day, or feeling states, or events that were upsetting, or disconcerting. It could be a way of beginning to learn how to distinguish one from the other.
But it also makes sense to ask you pdoc, if you're not clear. It's important for someone to guide you in the process of knowing if something could be one or the other, or could be either (or both)-- otherwise where will you start to catch onto it?
So I think your asking your pdoc is a good thing. And you might be misreading some of her intention-- if you're worried already about asking too much, you might hear a reproach in ambiguous, or other-meaning things that she says. I have a huge tendency to read my own fears into people's emails and comments.
I know that feeling though of anxiety that you need to have clarified-- and also the bad feelings that come swarming out when the other person responds in a complex way-- not with a more palpable reassurance that it's okay, more than okay to ask. It's hard to know, in yourself, that it is. But it really is a sign that you're working so hard to try to understand yourself-- and you really do need to go outside to get that information that you never got as a kid.
Over time, Llurpsie will take over doing those things-- but right now you're trying to make up for things you didn't get-- which I, at least, think is very right and worthwhile to push for-- just pdocs may not be used to such serious and committed learners--
((Lurpsie))
Honore
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