Posted by Rigby on May 4, 2007, at 11:26:39
In reply to Re: ((Crushed)) » muffled, posted by crushedout on May 3, 2007, at 16:23:46
How did you get to the forgiveness before? Do you think it was by sort of not having her in your life--like not in any way--you were able to rest from it? Time and space totally away from the source of the pain can be so helpful--in making you feel better and in giving you perspective.
This is where I really think her having a blog--a non-anon blog--is truly bad news. Patients should not be able to read about what their therapist thinks, who they are, etc. for so many reason. At least that's the traditional way of thinking about it. Although you actually have to proactively seek her out, in this day and age,everyone Googles and it takes four seconds to find someone's info so you could argue that it is somewhat in your face as it's so accessible.
It will take enormous restraint to stay away. It would for me. If it were me I would wish she never put it up so I would not have to deal with resisting or not resisting. Neither is pleasant.
If you were "done" with her it wouldn't matter in any way--just like anyone else putting up a blog--who cares. But you're not done. This is where all you can do is work with your current therapist to try to get done which it sounds like you're doing.
I guess if it were me it'd be so tempting I'd see it as an addiction--this time to a person and not a substance.
Maybe just count the days--day by day--that you don't engage. Don't be general like "just stop" but just say "I won't engage today."
Some day you will be able to look back and see that this was "just" an incompetent practioner, someone with a lot of problems and not someone who holds any more power over you. It will take time but it will happen.
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