Posted by Daisym on April 19, 2007, at 1:36:24
Things are so bad and yet nothing is wrong. Nothing new anyway. I just can't figure out how to know what I know and deal with it. I'm coming apart (again) and can't face knowing how this is going to feel tomorrow, or the next day or over the weekend. It is too much to bear again. I can't do it.
I'm trying to write it all out, to let the paper absorb some of the grief and tears. I think I've saturated the keyboard. I didn't work today. I don't want to tomorrow. I'm a terrible mom right now. I just want to be left alone, under the covers. I don't even want to see my therapist. He can't help anymore.
I give up. Uncle. Game over. Say goodnight Gracie.
I wish I was more help here too. Sorry - I try but end up writing mostly incoherent drivel. I know, we don't keep track. But (wailing) I don't want it to be my turn again.
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poster:Daisym
thread:751260
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