Posted by wishingstar on April 18, 2007, at 11:46:40
In reply to Re: im back » wishingstar, posted by gazo on April 18, 2007, at 11:38:24
you're right gazo. laurie is the T i liked back where I used to live. I saw her twice about a month ago at my current Ts recommendation because I'd shut down from current T and she wanted to see if I'd talk to Laurie about what was going on. The session she said that stuff about my work was the second of those two. She didnt say the word useless, no, but said it in so many words. I forget her exact words but it was things like.. there's no way youre being helpful to these kids.. understanding the emotions (what i felt like i was doing well) isnt enough to help them.. (and then used an example from my caseload to show me why what i was doing was obviously ineffective).. I forget. My mind isnt working well today. but things like that.
I dont want to quit at all. but whats my other option? I obviously cant do it. Its not fair to the kids and the families. I was unemployed from Oct-Feb after I dropped out of grad school (due to depression) and it wasnt good for me either. But neither is working. If I wasnt working, I'd do what I do now the rest of the time... sit in front of my computer or my tv, lay in bed.. nothing useful or good for me. I just want to be okay, you know? Ginny pushed and pushed for me to get a job and was thrilled when I finally applied and got this one (it was my first interview).. now everyones telling me I should quit. Theyre right. I dont know what else to do.
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