Posted by gazo on March 30, 2007, at 17:35:44
In reply to Re: unglued ****self harm TRIGGER****, posted by one woman cine on March 30, 2007, at 8:14:12
THAT is IT exactly. No one has ever seen it. I carry other people. People always say how strong i am. i want someone to KNOW. i want to tell someone what my life has really been and what has happened to me.
being invisible... hurting and not being able to even SAY it. It's not that i won't say it...i can't. i can't tell him what i am feeling cuz most of the time it makes no sense to me. and when i do connect i can't make the words come out.
i think about the events which caused these things and i can't just say them. i learned to just keep moving.
but i did one important thing... i told him in my letter that he HAD to ask me. he had to hear what i didn't say and he has to ask me. i told him i can list the events in a very disconnected way if he can ask.
i am trying to give him as much info to help me as i can manage to do.
the SI urges will go away, they will fade, esp once either he asks me the question or i feel more comfortable and safe anyway.
poster:gazo
thread:745393
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