Posted by Honore on March 21, 2007, at 10:42:32
In reply to Re: Another perspective » Racer, posted by Jeff Smith on March 20, 2007, at 1:08:48
It is really tough at this moment to find a good, affordable T, or pdoc. Esp. in NYC. The irony is that there probably are more good ones in NYC than in many other cities-- they just charge extraordinary fees.
The thing is, if you approach the situation with a "show me" attitude, you're likely to get less out of it. Or course, you're depressed, frustrated, angry. It's all too natural to feel as if some expert needs to find the right answer and then prove that it's the right one, before you go through any more misery.
There are a couple of people here who've gone through the mill and finally, after many failures and disappointments, found drug combos which, despite being unusual, work for them- when all the standard treatments not only failed, but wreaked various forms of temporary havoc. It's a hard road, but they did get to something that worked.
The best answer is to try (as much as possible) to adopt their attitude--as unfamiliar as it is, as difficult as adoption may be ( I do mysekf)-- despite falling into cynicism, dismissiveness, and angry despair when the person isn't who I've wanted, and their approach isn't that much what I'd like. It's a big part of the struggle to give some degree of trust, without trusting too much, and therefore feeling un bearably awful when things don't work.
There are drugs, for example, that don't cause weight gain-- Wellbutrin, Parnate, and combinations. Not everyone gains weight even with the drugs that do have that tendency. You have to submit to the unfortunate process== if you want to get to that place where you feel better. No expert can spare you that-- although I'm sure they woudl, if they could. Science just isn't at that point-- at the moment.
So we TR people are stuck with going through a lot of yuckiness if we want to have a chance to get to a better life.
It's understandable to be angry, to be furious even at the pdocs and Ts who weren't very well trained, or on-the-mark. I guess the best thing to do is try to forgive them their limitations-- and to invest yourself in looking for something better.
I take a small dose of abilify myself-- and have found it incredibly much better than my AD alone-- but that's me, and my body chemistry. It's really finding out, by trial and error, what you can use, and what you can't. Doing research, looking for the right person, despite the hard road. I think everyone here will try to give you support and suggestions, if it gets disappointing-- but if you turn away in anger and resentment, you, in the end, are the one left without the treatment you need.
That, I think, is what everyone is saying, in one way or another.
Honore
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