Posted by Daisym on February 16, 2007, at 23:00:53
In reply to Re: talking through crisis *trigger*, posted by Llurpsie_Noodle on February 16, 2007, at 22:48:01
Now is a good time to write and rage. Let your thoughts come and capture them. There is truth in the feelings, and truth in the words. It hurts in a way that I've never been able to describe -- that physical weight that sits on your chest and makes it hard to breath, and think. The pain makes it impossible to reach for help, especially when your little self remembers how awful the disappointments were. Better to try to contain it yourself, to stuff it, to bear it, to live through it.
But there is help now. You aren't completely alone. You can reach out to your therapist. And to us.
It sounds like you've entered a crisis phase. In the books this chapter is titled, "Don't kill yourself when you feel like this." I think often that the pain should kill you -- but it won't. And I've been at the point where I would do almost anything to make it stop hurting, to push away the flashbacks and the memories. I don't want to know what I know. But there is no way to unknow. So wait it out, take care of yourself as best you can.
I'm so sorry. I hear the hurt in your words and want very much to help. So I'm sending you a warm thoughts and sleepy energy. Please post tomorrow.
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