Posted by LadyBug on January 3, 2007, at 23:54:07
In reply to i miss my T, posted by sunnydays on January 3, 2007, at 21:07:41
I know how hard it is to be where you're at. I really do understand. One thing that my T does, and I have no idea if she does it for the very reason to let her patients know she's "back" is she changes her voice mail message from the one where she's out of the office...and when she has returned she changes it back to her normal everyday message. That way I know she's at least back and must be safe and I don't have to call and bug her to see if she's back. Ive never even told her I do this.
It's been 2 weeks since I've seen my T. I called her last week with the hope she'd get my voice mail and call me back. I asked her if she had a different appointment time for me this week. She called and told me she had one for today at noon. I called her back and left her a message and said that would be perfect and I'd see her then. I show up today just as she comes out, there's 2 of us sitting there. The other lady stayed because it's her "regular" hour. I don't know how she screwed it up but she felt terrible. I needed to see her today!!! I got ready, drove 30 min. only to turn around and go back home. She called and felt so bad, but I told her we all make mistakes and I forgave her. I go tomorrow. I almost told her , great forget it, I'm too full of anxiety to see you right now anyway. It's true, my life is tipping over at the moment. In every way, my marriage is falling apart, finances are a total disaster, I'm recovering from bilateral knee replacements, not working and suffering from depression/anxiety on top of everything else. I should lose at least one of my cars any day if not both of them. My husband is a piece of work. I'm going insane with anxiety. I went to my Dr. today and got some anxiety meds. I hate taking them, but I'm grateful I have them at a time like this.
I didn't mean to take away from your pain. I hope you get a call from him. I'm sure he will understand how you are worried about him. I have abandonment issues so this is touchy with me too. I bet he's fine. Just remember how many times you've said goodbye to him and then turned around and saw him again. He was there all along, he just wasn't visible to you. He will return. I hope for the best for you and that you can find some comfort in this until you see or hear from him. You don't sound like a broken record, you sound like someone that is hurting and missing your T. That's ok, just hard to feel.
Let me know if you hear something from him ok? I'll be thinking about you.
LadyBug
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