Posted by muffled on January 3, 2007, at 18:45:42
In reply to Re: i left a voicemail, posted by wishingstar on January 3, 2007, at 18:08:09
> A part of me just really, really wants to die right now. I just CANT DO THIS. Not see Ginny tomorrow.. just everything.
**Ahhh, the post message panic....
But you did it!!!I cant. Okay, I take it back.. Laurie would say I dont feel like I can, but its okay to feel that way and do it anyway.. so let me change it. I can, but I dont want to.
**Well done WS, even in your panic your remebering good stuff! You can,of course you think you can't, but yes you can, nobody said therapy was easy, but you want to feel better. You have taken a big step! Yay! This is GOOD. You can, PART of you doesn't want to, but MORE of you DOES.
> I'm done. I've been trying for too long and all I do is sabotage myself so how do I ever hope to feel better?
**But your so not done! You did it! You left a voicemail, and a good one at that. You have shown that you got guts. That you are ready to dig in and try. Its so hard and scarey, but your T is there for you, let her help. And you can babble away to us too, cuz so many of us know just how you feel.
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> I'm not going to hurt myself, just thoughts. Just to be clear.
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**Thank you for that. I must admit I was a little taken aback. But you wanted things to change, and you said you were sabotaging, but now your not! This is a T test your doing! This sort of thing is HUGE. It will make a big difference in the relationship itself as you work thru this challenge.
But from what I have seen of your posting, you can do it. It'll be hard but you can do it.
I'm TOTALLY impressed!
Keep babbling away.
I wish I was nearer, I'd go with you.
So I will just go with you in spirit.
Hear me whispering in your ear tomorrow, 'you can do it whishy, I KNOW you can, and its gonna be SUCH a good thing. Its time.'
Best to you WS.
Real trust feels good when it comes, real good. Its worth FIGHTING for.
So take it easy, try not to think, distract if you can.
Make a plan in the a.m. that you will get up, brush teeth, hair, get dressed, all while not thinking.
Remember me cheering for you. Remember Laurie cheering for you, remember MORE of you wants this, and it's just gonna happen.
Take care,
Muffled
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