Posted by kerria on December 20, 2006, at 23:21:37
In reply to Re: i Can't Find A T - so much FEAR PAIN now » kerria, posted by Phillipa on December 20, 2006, at 21:58:45
Thanks Phillipa,
my parts don't read each other's notes. If they do they won't do what it says on purpose i think. That's why it's so sad and why i'm so upset and hurt so much inside/feel so hopeless. It hurts when they don't understand- it's not in my control. i need to work on communication. Now that i see how separated my parts are and my parts are having to suffer the consecquences of being so dysfunctional and messed up all the time we want to try to communicate with parts and get to know them It's really hard and we were unable to do it so far. We were able to meet a part while under hypnosis once- but it was scary for me and i was afraid for days.
i don't have the support and don't have a T now. It's hard to learn alone. It's scary to know parts and lose the ability to shut parts out- have them separate so everything doesn't feel like a confusing mess
i'm so afraid now because i don't have a T and so hurt that no one wants to take me. It makes me feel hatred towards parts, blaming is going on also.
Thank you for encouragement, Phillipa.
kerria
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