Posted by muffled on December 14, 2006, at 17:20:59
In reply to I sent this to my T, posted by muffled on December 14, 2006, at 17:13:18
I meant to add but already pressed the button.
Do I make ANY sense?
Do you think my T will understand?
Sometimes I realize she just all too human.
That she got her own human ideas of who I am.
And sometimes I just feel like she DON'T GET IT.
I want to just screama nd make her understand.
But I generally on goodish behavior.
Sometimes I write nasty stuff.
But I don't want to hurt her.
I also think she thinks I am an OK person(go figger???), or mebbe thats just that unconditional acceptance thing that T's do.
Mebbe I leading her on by making her think I nice?
Mebbe its all just some big front, or lie I living?
Mebbe, I dunno, I dunno anything.
I dunno even when she will get the fax.
Or if she would phone me.(proly NOT)
Sometimes, sometimes I just wish I could let go with her and tell her how it REALLY is.
But I can't.
Goes against the prime directive.
SH*T?
Am I the only one like this or does anyone else 'get' this at all?
Thank you,
Muffled
poster:muffled
thread:713701
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20061210/msgs/713703.html