Posted by ElaineM on November 20, 2006, at 9:43:37
In reply to Re: Back ***hospital trig » ElaineM, posted by Lindenblüte on November 19, 2006, at 21:24:59
(((((muff))))) Sorry I wasn't up to turning on the computer the last few days. I was in agony and really distracted by that. But its touching that you were thinking of me then.
(((((Li)))))) Yes, you're right. The ER doc has been the best so far. My problem wasn't his specialty but again the younger docs have been more promising. I think they are still concerned with covering all the bases, rather than going on experienced hunches (and stuff like that). I wish he had a regular practise. When I was in the hospital I made friends with a young orthopedic surgeon - he was even wearing a band shirt with his scrub bottoms. He came into my room by accident and ended up talking with me a bit and trying to joke around. He told me to shout his name if I ever needed anything and saw him running by. He checked in on me a few times while I was waiting for my doc to return from his page. I wonder if young docs are better able to remember what it feels like to be scared.
(((((SatinDoll)))) It doesn't matter what's said, it's nice to know you care.Thanks for checking on me you guys. :')
I *did* try the med. It was so scary. It may have had a teeny tiny bit of a difference - though it didn't do what it was supposed to do. But considering my case, I didn't expect that really. God, I was so afraid yesterday. I still feel really ill today, and I'll probably have to try more of it, or go back to the ER doc, if no one else takes over soon.
I called the specialist that ER referred me to but the message said that they don't open the office again until Tuesday. So I have to really work myself up tonight to push my case for an immediate appointment - though I'm not really sure how I'd do that.
I'm so afraid cause my weight is now *quite alot* from mid-October (I'm still officially normal weight though). Obviously, I don't move around, so it's not like I'm excerising or something. I eat as much as I can until I start bringing it back up. I'm still even eating all the junk food stuff too. And I'm quite dilligent with drinking things now - I even switched to decaff teabags cause I don't want to negate anything I manage to get down. I don't understand. And this is f*cking horrible cause ever since I recovered again I get so anxious and frightened when I lose weight. It's so traumatic for a body. I'm pretty scared.
Last week I also sent my final writing assignment to Writing Course Lady. I worked in pretty much exactly what's going on with T and I. Her comments were: "Your character expresses human emotion well. You should enroll again when you're in better health." *sigh* I don't know, I guess it was too cryptic - though it didn't seem that way to me. It's not her fault. It's not her job to hear that sort of thing, so it wasn't her place to do or say more. It *was* supposed to be creative writing too so...
One good thing is the LadyDoc (from school) sent a note with a consultation summary that was sent to her, saying that she hopes I'm better. It really meant alot. I miss her so much. :'(
It means alot you guys ask, especially cause I've only seen T once out of five sessions.
blove, EL
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