Posted by muffled on October 21, 2006, at 1:47:03
OK so I figgered alot. I was flipping out but I am ok now.
Something very scarey and yucky happened to one of my inside kids.
My T said mebbe she is too little to be able to have the words to tell me, and thats why its so confusing.
I kept thinking she(kid) was just messing with me. Or mebbe thats what I WANTED to think...
But things have been very bad inside. Lots of freaking.
So now, after alot of fuss. We have decided this kids feelings have as much validity as anyone elses. She's just little so its not really terribly likely she's messing w/us.
So, something bad happened to her.
We will accept that.
But the rest of our kidhood WAS good. Yeah, we accept that too! Good.
So any dysfunctionality that carried thru, was due most likely, from the ongoing confusion from that kid.
Triggers, confusion, fear, and noone knowing why.
And so thats why Muffled is the way she is.
She is still Muffled.
That inside kid is part of her.
And we going to accept her as she is.
Mebbe hurt, but NOT dirty, NOT bad, NOT tainted, NOT disgusting and gross, NOT evil.
Just a scared little kid.
THATS what we gonna do.
I hope this will work......
Muffled
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