Posted by Lindenblüte on October 14, 2006, at 17:14:23
In reply to Re: What's Dissociation? Li's experiences » Lindenblüte, posted by sunnydays on October 14, 2006, at 15:22:06
> Oh my gosh, Li!!!! You described what I do soooo well, and soooo much better than I have been able to describe it in the past.
>My T also describes it as a protective thing. I really don't like it a lot of the time, because I WANT to be able to feel, and I hate feeling so disconnected, but my T says it will come when my psyche is ready to handle the emotions and that for now there's no reason to push myself to overcome it. But now that we've been noticing it for a while and I try a little bit for it not to happen in therapy, it really has gotten so much better. Although it is definitely still present in some areas of my life.
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>And let yourself take the time you need. The dissociation is there for a reason, and as you get stronger and stronger it will start to lift as you become more able to handle whatever it is protecting you from. It's frustratingly slow, but it'll happen.
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> sunnydaysSunnydays,
thanks for validating my feelings. Good to know that there are at least 2 people in the world with these experiences :) Also, I'm glad that you told me about dissociation IN the therapy context, because this is something I find incredibly frustrating. I go in, with all the intention to be true and show myself-- and the same old sh*t keeps coming out everytime. Well. I'm being a bit pessimistic, but... it IS too slow for me. I want it OUT of me. gone. I want to be better yesterday.oh well.
-Li
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