Posted by Daisym on September 14, 2006, at 23:44:26
In reply to Re: Just saying hello! » annierose, posted by Pfinstegg on September 14, 2006, at 21:24:36
A HUGE and warm HELLO! I've missed you!
I'm so glad you are doing so well and still feel so connected to your therapist. I was thinking about one of your posts last night, in which you were sort of sadly resigned to the fact that the intense closeness had worn off a bit. I'm happy that it was simply changed in a way and it has now changed back.
I passed the three year mark (I had to really think about that, it HAS been 3 years!) in May and I'm about to change how often I go. I've been going 4x a week pretty steady for awhile but we've decided to try 3x a week and take the 4th session and split it between T and Th sessions. So I'll go an hour and half on those days. Part of this is logistical, too much driving on Wed and part is a frustration of not having enough time for all the parts and pieces. I've become afraid to go really deep because it is so hard to get myself together to leave. And then I'm so angry that he let me fall apart and then makes me leave. So we are going to try this as a two week experiment.
I've learned so much from my Fellowship program. Last weekend we worked at integrating analytic theory and technique with developmental theory and play techniques. It was fascinating and painful for me in places. I think I shared somewhere here - I was brilliant in places because of my own experiences, not because I totally understood the material. :) And I am more and more convinced that doing therapy the way we are doing it is truly a gift. Most people do not get to experience such a deep and healing connection. In November we will be working with Dan Siegel and his research about changing the brain. And next March I'll be in Boston for a class with Daniel Stern about what effects change in psychotherapy. So it is grueling but hugely rewarding, both professionally and personally.
I'm so glad you checked in.
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