Posted by inimitable on September 9, 2006, at 22:00:51
In reply to Re: my T's match.com profile **poss trig**, posted by inimitable on September 9, 2006, at 17:54:39
gosh, now it seems i can't stop going to the site where his profile is....i keep seeing his face, which in the picture, his face looks wider than it actually is, and the pic freakily reminds me of my step brother!
i can't seem to get it out of my mind though, all those qualities that i have that i know he would like, but he only knows me as this screwed up chic that he sees once a week. even though whenever i say something like "i'm crazy" or "screwed up" he always says i'm not, i've just got problems...but as it says in his profile, he doesn't want to "take his work home with him" but we could have really dug each other, if only he weren't my T. and although i know all this information would have killed me two months ago when i was REALLY obsessed with him, it doesn't hurt as much now, but it DOES hurt a bit, and makes me think of what could have been. i don't normally think of "what could have been" a lot, i don't ruminate about the past too much, i mainly fantasize about the future, which is not good either, but have been more present minded lately and it has worked for me, but to have this pop up in my life right now just surprised me. and i am wondering if i even need to mention it to him, my t? if it were any other t, i would mention it, but it wouldn't be as relevent to talk about unless i had a crush on that t too. but if i didn't have a crush on them, would i talk about it? it wouldn't have as much of an effect on me. this does. well, i guess i answered my own question, i am going to tell him, even though i knew i would but i was trying to think of some way where i wouldn't have to.
*inimitable
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