Posted by kerria on August 2, 2006, at 21:26:10
In reply to Re: This is a cruel way to do DID therapy » kerria, posted by Jost on July 31, 2006, at 3:16:04
> Kerria, if possible, can you find a T who knows how to work with DID?
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> That's a very special, and demanding (of the T's skill and tact and timing) kind of work, and you do need someone with both experience and the right temperament to feel his or her way with you. not push, force.
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> Is there any way you can find someone to help you forget and put away for the future, these parts that have been too quickly brought into the dialogue?
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> Someone who knows how to keep you safe, and only do things after long preparation, and your readiness?
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> You need and deserve someone who isn't going to cause further damage, and trauma, or cause you to remember things, unless it's crucial to recovery-- and only in manageable way.
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> If this T isn't trained, and has gone in too far, maybe someone else can help you rebalance, and regain your footing.
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> Don't let this terrible experience push away all the possiblities for your life, that you aren't able to feel now.
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> You can find a better life, and get back to a place where these memories are in their place, and you're not in danger from them.
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> Does any kind of meditation or mindfulness help even a little, when the thoughts and feelings get too painful? This may sound really silly, but I was reading that various smells can be used to reduce pain, in people with chronic pain. I tried one, and afterward I really couldn't feel the pain. It was just a sensory way of focusing my mind somewhere else. Is there any way you can do that?
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> It's hard to fight for yourself, with so much turmoil and badness, but try to, if you possibly can. That you're writing here is a good sign, it shows that you're not without any resources, and can be for yourself.
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> I've been looking for you.
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> JostThanks Jost, so much for writing. your thoughts help feel less hopeless.
i left a T who does therapy for DID. He agreed to see me again and do containment - put away the terrible thoughts and memories that came out.
i went - we were 35 min. late and he seemed upset- even angry with me. i told him that i never wanted to see the other T (who upset me so much with asking so many questions) again. He said "You said that about me too."
It felt so bad that he said that. We never did get to doing containment of the memories. i'm still a mess. Instead he kept asking if i was his patient- that was the thing discussed. i felt in too bad shape- it feels like i can't make it to the next session. When i'm feeling bad it always seems like this. i left him because it feels like he doesn't care about me.It's hard for me to find DID specialists who will take me, especially when i'm having so hard a time.
i'm seeing him again on Friday. i don't know if he will ever help me.Thank you for writing. my h is always so angry when i go to support groups but i can't help it- without hearing words of hope here from you and others i never hear any anywhere else.
it feels like my life is too hard for me. My h would say "You're not thankful- people have it worse than you." He gets angry with me - like now - when he sees me write here in this support group. tears. It hurts me so much. i know that a lot of people have things worse but it doesn't make me feel any better , Everything is still so difficult and still a confusing mess.
Thanks for being there,
kerria
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