Posted by inimitable on July 21, 2006, at 17:28:00
In reply to Re: as above, breaking my heart » inimitable, posted by Dinah on July 21, 2006, at 12:34:16
Hey, it went okay, i at least feel better.
I am going to continue therapy. he asked me if I'd rather avoid this pain or learn to deal with it, learn skills (more skills than i have learned so far i guess), to help deal with the pain, in case it happens in the future. yes, my whole life it seems i am attracted to those who don't find me attractive or they are otherwise unattainable, and so this situation with him is nothing new really, but this pain is worse than i've ever felt with any relationship. so he knows i have this pattern of liking those unattainable, so he suggested that if i kept with therapy, i would be able to learn skills that would help me in the future. i knew he would use that, bring that up, i guess the idea of having to see him every week, as a reminder, is hard. he is so cute, i love his hands (so frail and soft looking) and he uses them often, gesturing and putting them against the side of his face, kind of playing with his face a bit...and his eyes...okay i'm not going to even get started on this fantasy, stopping it before it goes to far. it's hard.i have to work on that. anyways, thank you for replying dinah, and for those of you that are reading this now, thanks. this board is helpful to have, when i need it. i don't have too many big things, problems, but when i do, it's good to know you are all here.
:)
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