Posted by sunnydays on July 13, 2006, at 15:30:25
In reply to Re: An Emotional Therapist » sunnydays, posted by daisym on July 13, 2006, at 12:50:42
Yes, I talk to my therapist some about the process of therapy. Not too much, though, because I seem to have this defense mechanism that makes me want to avoid talking about therapy like the plague. It's getting better, though. We talk about how a lot of the things I feel are just part of the healing process, and how the scar tissue just has to keep getting scraped away.
I don't really tell my stories in much detail at all. I tend to be very very quiet in therapy, and it's just been recently since I made a major change in my life that I have been feeling safe enough in my life outside of therapy to talk in therapy. I am just beginning to tell my stories for the first time, so a lot of the time I don't go into too much detail. But some we have revisited, and more detail comes out each time I tell it.
It depends on the day how telling makes me feel. I usually feel more connected to him in the session, but later that night I get incredibly scared that I've ruined everything, that he's tired of seeing me, that it's too much, and that he won't want to see me anymore. My therapist tells me that's the little girl part of me reacting. We're trying to work on me reacting more like an adult (I'm only 20, so I think it's good to try to learn how adults feel at this point). Usually I feel more connected in the session, though, because he reacts so well, and is so gentle with my feelings that I just feel heard. It's only after that I get so scared. I can't tell you the number of nights that I've been on the verge of tears because I was afraid he would leave.
If I find a short cut, I'll share it. Not sure I will though. :)
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