Posted by ElaineM on June 30, 2006, at 16:41:35
In reply to This isn't fun any more, posted by Tamar on June 30, 2006, at 13:49:28
Tamar, I'm sorry that you're unwell and feeling so down. I can understand how you're frustrated (it makes me frustrated only reading it). I also have had a really hard time remembering faces when there is a gap between seeing people. It sometimes can reach panic-mode when I can't access people in my head - like they've disappeared, if I can't always see them infront of me. It's a pretty frantic feeling. You sound a bit like that.
I've been allowed to take a picture of one of my T's before. Have you ever mentioned that to him? If not a picture, does he ever let you keep a memento or something? Or is that just something he's always evasive about. I think it makes alot of sense for you to feel that you need to hold onto his actual image. The best I can describe it is, when I couldn't, it was almost like meeting a stranger every session. I had to have faith in the consistency of the idea AND image of her, before the trust could come.
I don't know if that's exactly how you feel, but I think talking about a picture would be worth a shot. I just don't know how your T would react. I don't understand some of his respones. (though to be fair to you both, I only know of him from a few threads)
I'm so sorry that you can't get any comfort from therapy right now, especially when you feel so scared.
Thinking of you.
With hugs, EL
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