Posted by Karolina on June 3, 2006, at 15:54:57
One of the posts about asking for hugs made me think about something. My T has already given me a hug, it was a very emotional time because I had to leave for school in a different city. We had been seeing each other on a weekly basis and this was the first time we wouldn't be seeing each other for several months. I had been upset and he could tell, once we were out of his office he turned around and said 'come here' quietly, holding out his arms.
He held me for like 10 minutes. Neither one of us spoke and when we finally pulled away we did so slowly. It felt really good but then I doubt that he even remembers it. Anyway, my point is that I am going to have to leave soon to go far away again, and of course I know I will be extremely emotional. and of course I know I will want another hug. But I'm freaking out because what if he doesnt offer one like last time?
It probably seems like a stupid issue to worry about. But because of how things ended last time, it's like if this time doesn't end in the same way I will be extremely crushed. We never brought up the hug during a conversation afterwards, nor have we ever brought up that particular appointment and how it made me feel. When it gets closer to the end, should I bring this issue up? or how I want another hug? I can't believe I am having anxiety over this but I know it's because he means so much to me...
-Karolina-
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thread:652436
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