Posted by muffled on June 2, 2006, at 18:01:26
In reply to Re: Ah, Llrrrpp......, posted by llrrrpp on June 2, 2006, at 16:09:01
> "Really, you ok in my book if thats of any consequence to you.
> Muffy"
>
> It is of consequence
> I like you Muffy. I'm glad I'm in your book
>
> mutable means change-able, things that are not permanent.
>
> The voice that calls me to the dark place tells me that my depression is immutable. that I better accept it. the only way out is... you know.***but you know that that is a lie. The voice in the dark place loves to put a 'grain of truth' into what it says, so that it makes it seem true. But those dark voices lie like crazy. When I am more in 'reality' (whatever that is) I can see the lies. They are quite obvious. But when I am in the place of darkness its REALLY hard to tell what is truth and what is lies. And thats when it helps to hasve people to talk to you cuz then they can help you see things for what they truly are.
Depression is a sickness, I been there, but you can come out. And then everything is extra special in life cuz you've looked death in the face, and realize that life is a gift, that there is beauty amongst the pain, there are good people out there, that you do have a purpose, that you can help others,....yeah, well, ad nauseum I go on!!!
Anyhow. Suicide is REALLY last resort as it hurts so many people. And what if it don't go right and you spend the rest of your days maimed or on a respirator or something.
I am SO glad I am still here, even if some weeks are really hard for me. The good times are worth it. If I help one person then my life is worthy. If I can bring some rays of light into others darkness, then its worth it.
I used to want to die. Still sometimes kinda want to, but really, at this point anyway, death is not an option for me.
I hope you can find the good things inside and trust them and beleive them. The darkness is not omnipotent (HA! Hows that for a big word!).
I wish I was smarter.
Anyhow.
I do care.
So you take care ok?
Thanks,
Muffy
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