Posted by B2chica on May 12, 2006, at 9:56:34
In reply to I Feel So Far Behind, posted by DisposableDoll on May 12, 2006, at 4:01:37
first of all DispDoll, you sound like you are in a LOT of pain and i just ask you that you don't hurt yourself. if you have some impulsive feelings that are leading you to actions please tell someone.
and dear one you have GOT to stop comparing yourself to others. you are a young beautiful woman with plenty to offer any man.
and no matter what you have, if you look around long enough you will find others with much more.
i was married when i was 25 but now 33 and still no kids, no real career, still really don't know what i want to do and pretty much just getting by. i look around and i see those with full careers, families (and at my age i get a LOT of cr@p about not having kids) or in doc programs. my husband and i are both driving 20 some year old cars and have only recently moved into a home.
so if i want to increase my depression all i have to do is look around and see what others have already accomplished and them being 5-10 years younger than me. full careers AND families.but all that said, i've finally accepted where i'm at. we all grow at our own pace. we are meant to have certain experiences and we have them when we can accept them, no matter what our ages.
this guy you love so much. do you know why he doen'st want to be with you? are you sure he's worth this pain inside your heart for him? i think he doesn't know a good thing when it's staring him in the face. and honestly is probably still just too immature to want to settle down. you obviously think about the future and want more for yourself. THIS is great. you NEED to think of these things, but you also need to find a mate that has his head in the same place as yours.please, i don't mean to sound insensitive. but it just sounds like you deserve SO much more that this guy is willing to give you. please don't settle.
i wish you peace in your heart.
i am sorry you are hurting so much.
hugs
b2c.
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