Posted by LittleGirlLost on February 2, 2006, at 9:25:06
I haven't taken a vacation in years. I always worry when my T goes on vacation, and never really thought of myself doing the same thing. Until now. I see her tonight, and I leave Saturday for a week. I have very mixed feelings about it. (Aside from just being nervous about flying!) I'm worrying the way I worry when SHE goes away. But there's more since it's ME that's leaving. I worry about her forgetting me. I worry about her giving my time to someone else. (She said she wouldn't) But I even mean on that one night I will miss. I want her to do something special for herself the way I have to when she's away. I don't want her to see anyone else at that time, even if it's just that one week. I'm kind of excited about going away; I really need it. I'm so stressed out with work and everything else going on. But there is a little part of me, that feels like all I am doing is leaving her. Leaving each week is hard, why would I choose to do this and really be away? My vacation should be fun and relaxing, and I am even planning something special for these little feelings one day, but I still feel sad about going.
lgl
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