Posted by antigua on January 27, 2006, at 7:15:38
AS I mentioned earlier, I am going to my mother's for the weekend and I'm going to tell her generally what my father had done to me and how it has been a secret between us for all these years. How I felt if I told her, she would think I was disgusting and wouldn't love me. I've been holding this back for a long time.
I never, ever thought I would be in this place. I feel strong, but very nervous (klonopin!) and hope it goes well. I am going to tell her Sunday morning so we have time to deal with it before I leave on Monday. Hey, but if it doesn't go well, I may be home Sunday afternoon!
My goal is to not to be accusatory or defensive, just to let her know I've harbored this secret that has caused all sorts of destructive behavior on my part (drinking) and although I don't expect anything from her, I just need to get this out.
I hope it goes well. She seems more stable now, but you never know. I haven spent parts of three sessions going over this w/my T and she agrees with my plan, so wish me luck.
I'll post when I get back.
thank you for all your support,
antigua
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