Posted by Frida on December 9, 2005, at 17:18:37
In reply to Re: totally losing it here :*** ( *warning** » Frida, posted by Tamar on December 9, 2005, at 14:39:59
Dear ((((Tamar)))))
Thank you for writing to me. It means a lot. It truly does.
I have told her some of it- in writing mostly. She knows bits. I think that more than telling her a lot, I feel the need to tell some of it and share the feelings and cry with her instead of crying all alone. A lot of times I go there feeling as if i had just been hurt, and I can't say anything, and I feel such urgency to just cry and tell her how I feel.
I hope she'll see me twice a week next week, I don't know if she'll agree to that. If she doesn't, I'll see her on Friday :-(You are right, a part of me wants to be sure she knows more, I want to be sure she knows it so I'm not alone, I want her to see my heart before she leaves. And of course I'm also afraid of her leaving *me*
I think I'll write a letter to her and read it to her and try to let myself cry when i feel it.
I truly feel scared of all this staying inside of me for a month and a half...I feel it totally overwhelms me... I wish I could just cry with her-It truly is hard to talk. It took me years. and I still can't talk freely and share. I told her I needed to tell her some of it because I can't breathe :-(
Thank you for reaching out to me!!
It means a lot,
Frida
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