Posted by happyflower on November 22, 2005, at 3:59:07
I haven't been able to sleep well the last couple of nights, which makes it hard to get up with so little sleep. Plus who likes getting up when it is dark outside.
My orthodics are preventing me from doing my normal exercise routine.
Plus my trumpet has been in the shop for a week now, so I can't play either to get rid of my stress. No bad rehearsals until January.Christmas shopping is almost here, and we are short on money this year, so spending money when you don't have it, is not fun to me.
Plus in January it will be a year of therapy. I can't believe I have been in it so long. I can't believe I get my life on track, then I get hammered with marriage problems.
I guess I just feel down on everything, pity, pity. Therapy has helped me happier than I have ever been , but yet I am so sad to be losing my marriage, there is nothing I can do to make my DH want me. I hate this feeling and what my marriage is doing to our kids.
My T thinks I am doing really well, then why do I feel like I stubble and fall into a pit somedays? Maybe it is hormones talking right now, I guess I am seeing the cycle of this. Yuck!
I guess I shouldn't complain, others have more worse things to complain about, maybe I shouldn't feel so bad. I just want to cry though. So sad today. :(.
poster:happyflower
thread:581145
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