Posted by Tamar on November 7, 2005, at 19:43:26
In reply to Re: Thanks Guys. HELP??? » Tamar, posted by muffled on November 7, 2005, at 19:14:14
> > Are you more depressed than usual?
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> >* Starting to be, but not so bad. I have had clinical depression. But its not like that.Well, knowing what it *isn’t* can be a good thing.
> > I think it does make sense. I don’t know what’s happening to you without more detail. Are you on meds – and if so, would adjusting them help… can you see a p-doc?
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> *No meds. Cept xanax sometimes. AD's don't agree w/me. I goto a basic T. She and I don't wish any labels, they can haunt you, they really can.(not mentally but in IRL)I know what you mean. My T never gave me a diagnosis. I often thank him (in my mind) for that.
> *A while, getting slowly worse. Since before I had my freakout about Dr.Bob where I thot maybe he was evil or something.Was that the stuff about Dr Bob’s links to Nietzsche? I can imagine that someone who comes across Nietzsche for the first time might find it deeply disturbing. I reckon that’s a pretty normal response! I read Nietzsche for the first time when I was 28 and I didn’t know if I was coming or going… It’s very strange stuff. His ideas really have changed the world but they’ve also been frequently misunderstood…
> Since a little before I had an encounter with my inner child. Since before oct26. I think maybe everytime I try to look at the past I start to freak out. My T usu. backs off cuz I get sort of risky behaviour. But I was doing better but theres a block I can't get by. I am missing part of myself, and its chewing away at my insides. I don't think I can be better until I stop or fix that part, or find it or something.I was trying to, but now I'm all weird.
Going exploring inside yourself can be very difficult. Maybe you’re pulling away from the things you don’t want to acknowledge. That would be understandable. Just try not to pull away too far… Take it slowly.
> I'm trying not to smoke pot but once a week. Haven't smoked since last Tues. Don't smoke alot really but I'm trying to factor in all variables.Maybe I'm just freaking out in slow motion. Sorry this is long. I'm just having a hard time trying to understand.
> I'm not normally such a nut. You'd never know it to see me in the schoolyard waiting to pick up my kids. I joke alot. I have SI off and on since early teens.I really don’t think you’re a nut. And SI is hard but not unusual… Sometimes I think it’s better than the alternatives… I’d probably be in prison if I didn’t SI…
I guess the aim is to get to a place where we feel SI is no longer necessary.
When do you next see your T?
Tamar
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